I’ve been overcome by a wave of sadness and fear
I’m guessing it’s because the school year has finally come to a close.
And I’m scared.
Scared that my new friends will forget about me.
Scared specifically that a certain someone will forget about me.
I know I shouldn’t worry about it. If God wants it to work out, everything will work out. But it doesn’t necessarily soothe the fear.
Just got to tell myself that no matter what happens, God is in control and knows what He is doing.
I’m just going to have to have faith. I will not let my fear overwhelm me.
My God is stronger than my fear!
I will move past this sadness.
I love how my computer knows the perfect playlist for me
Plays the song that is story of my life that makes me cry (especially now with it being November) then playing a song about God is faithful and will always work it out somehow.
So as I’m bawling my eyes out that second song reminded me that God is in control and knows what He is doing and He is going to make it out somehow. :)
(here are the songs just in case you were curious
1) Jason Castro “Love Uncompromised”
2) Josh Wilson “Know by Now”
Yes, God is faithful :) I should know this by now :)
Hate those late night phone calls, they only mean one thing… :(
Found out my Aunt is in the hospital. She has been sick and puking all day. Her husband took her to the doctor and he said you need to get to the Medical University ASAP because something is wrong with her kidney.
My aunt had massive kidney failure years ago and had to have them removed so my mom gave her one. So my aunt only has ONE kidney. So she cannot get sick because her immune system just can’t handle it. So this is a big deal.
She is at MUSC (our medical university) right now and my uncle says he does not know how long they are going to keep her.
Please pray for her if you can,
Just on a personal note
So I wrote this note on my phone during one of my melt downs last week during class. I am not going to change the wording of it because I don’t want to mess with the raw emotions that were being experienced when written. Some of it was a little too personal so I left it out, but I left what I wanted shared:
So I did it! I got baptized last night!
And it was AMAZINGG!
I feel like now I have had the physical “rebirth” to the inner spiritual “rebirth” I had a few months back. It was awesome, me as well as about 8 other of my peers from my new school got baptized, and about 100 other students were there to witness it. It truly was a great experience. I prayed for this opportunity and I am so glad God gave it to me.
I am just so overwhelmed by all the blessings God has given me. I wish I had gone here to begin with, this school is where I belong. I cannot wait to see what God does with me in the upcoming years here at Charleston Southern.
BTW, here is a picture of me getting baptized :D
God bless yall <3
As much as I want to, I’m not giving up
Though I want to so bad. To just give up on my dream. To give up on what God has shown me He wants for me. To give up on ever having any dream for that matter, because I’m tired of them falling through. First with my broken engagement, now not being able to afford college. I want to just say fine, I quit. I feel stupid for thinking if I couldn’t afford Winthrop that I could afford Charleston Southern, which costs almost double.
But I can’t shake the feeling God has got something up His sleeve. I cannot give up just yet. I suppose He is just testing my faith. I have cried, but I have not lost hope in Him. I know He can and will provide a way for me to pay this tuition.
He has shown me the path to take, I know He will get me there. I just have to hold on, and keep fighting the good fight of faith. I cannot let this set back keep me down.
God, please make a way. And please grant me the strength to hold on until you do.
Your Daughter, Tiffany
Just Have Faith
So if you have been on my blog or seen any of my most recent posts, you will know that I need this message now more than ever. But I am sure I am not the only one who does, so I have decided to put this post together, not just for me and my personal reference, but for my followers too, who may need some help/development in the faith department.
So I’m reading some of my old Bible notes, mainly from my study of the book of Matthew. Due to what’s going on in my life, I am making special notes of the passages/verses on faith:
These are only a few examples that the Bible shares with us on the importance of faith. Know that no matter what God throws your way, as long as you have complete and total trust and faith in Him, He will bless you always.
Tangled Up in Faith
So recently I watched Tangled for the first time. And as I was watching it, I was touched by the city’s faith. If you have not seen the movie, here is what I am talking about. Every year on the missing princess’s birthday, they release hundreds of lanterns in the night sky, in hopes that she may return.
So they did this for 18 years (until she finally returned home). They did not give up hope that she would return, no matter how many years had passed.
We should be the same way with God. We should pray without ceasing. Even if we feel our prayers are going unanswered, He still hears our cries. Just because He has not answered them yet, does not mean He isn’t listening, it just means He is waiting for the right time to give you the answer you ask. We just have to have faith that He is listening and faith that He will answer our prayer!
“who through faith are shielded by God’s power until the coming of the salvation that is ready to be revealed in the last time. In this you greatly rejoice, though now for a little while you may have had to suffer grief in all kinds of trials. These have come so that your faith—of greater worth than gold, which perishes even though refined by fire—may be proved genuine and may result in praise, glory and honor when Jesus Christ is revealed. Though you have not seen him, you love him; and even though you do not see him now, you believe in him and are filled with an inexpressible and glorious joy, for you are receiving the goal of your faith, the salvation of your souls.” 1 Peter 1:5-9
"We put our hope in the LORD. He is our help and our shield."
So this morning I got an encouraging message that has just made my day
It is from a young lady I kinda grew up with. She is about 5-8 years older than me, so there isn’t a huge age difference. She is kinda family (she is my cousin’s wife’s sister) lol so I have grown up with her, though I was never super close to her or anything.
Well anyway, she messaged me this morning sending me encouragement. Saying how I have inspired her and how proud of me she is to see how I am handling the situation with my break up with my fiance. Her and her now husband broke up several times before finally getting married. It is so nice to hear from someone who has actually BEEN in my shoes.
This couple went to the same church Josh and I met at and Josh is friends with her husband. So maybe it’s a sign that God is telling me not to lose hope. Right before bed last night I read Psalm 25, which I labeled the chapter of hope :)
God really is great at sending people at just the right time and to say just the right thing. This has only encouraged me to keep on fighting, to keep on living my life until God is ready to bring us back together :)
Praise God for He is good. His mercy endures forever!