Believe in yourself

People may not always have faith in you. They may not always believe in you. They may cast darkness and doubt over your dreams. But it takes a certain darkness in order for the stars to shine. Take that darkness, take the hurt from others’s unbelief and turn it into an opportunity to prove them wrong. Shine so bright the darkness fades away. You can’t expect others to believe in your shine if you don’t believe in it yourself.

I just remembered… I had the craziest dream last night!!

I had a dream it was my birthday and I was doing my Random Acts of Kindness with my friend. I was at the store  and helped an elderly lady put her groceries in the car (because it was December, cold, and raining). She was more than happy to let us help but insisted to give us twenty dollars as payment. I kindly explained to her my Random Acts of Kindness tradition where I do “X” number amount of kind deeds, depending on how old I turn that year (which was 22 in the dream) she said well, “if you won’t accept then I will just drop it on the ground, and finders keepers goes into play. Then you can use it on your quest and can bless others.” She then got in her car and drove away.

So my friend and I picked up the money and went to get some dinner.  While there we saw an adorable elderly couple.  They were holding hands as they ate their food.  Something just drew my attention to them so I asked our waitress to use the $20 to cover their meal and to keep whatever was left over.  She cheerfully took the money and told the couple about the anonymous payment.  He shared with the waitress what a blessing it was, as they were celebrating his wife’s 82nd birthday that very evening.

As they were walking out, the husband came over to us (not knowing it was us who picked up their tab) and blessed us. Saying “God has been laying this on my heart to tell y’all this.  I don’t know what it means, but I have learned over the years, when God tells you to do something, you just do it, no questions asked. So God wanted me to tell y’all to continue doing you’re good works. Continue to grow closer to Him and you will grow closer together along the way” Then he turned to walk away, only to turn back around and look me in the eyes and simply said “Yes.” and went back to his wife and they left the restaurant.

My friend and I looked at each other in total amazement.  Then our waitress returned… but this time it was different one.  She said “Oh, I’m sorry I missed y’all. But I see someone got you’re drinks already.” I told her how Mary Beth had taken our orders.  She looked at me confusedly and said, “… We don’t have a Mary Beth that works here.” We went on to describe the waitress and she replied, “There is no one here who fits that description.” 

We explained to her about how the waitress got our drinks and we also told her about the elderly couple sitting at the back corner booth.  The lady then replied saying that she had been working for the past four hours and no one has even sat at that booth all day.

By this point, the lady thought we were crazy, took our food orders, and quickly walked away.  My date and I were trying to process what just happened. Then we came to the crazy conclusion that the waitress Mary was actually an angel.  And that the elderly couple we saw was actually US in the future. God placed them there to guide us and help us see we were on the right track.  And the “Yes” was answering a question I have been asking God for a long time now.

So yeah… that was my crazy dream….

What do you do when you have dreams like this? haha Do you share it with those involved? lol… awkward… but seriously?

Leave it to me….

This afternoon during my nap I had a dream that I was supposed to meet my friends for lunch but on my way I fell and sprained my ankle.

Well this evening I had a banquet to go to and on my way there, I fell down the stairs and hurt my ankle. I’m now trapped in my dorm room studying for exams while attempting to ice it up with the ten teeny ice cubes that came in the ice tray for my mini fridge.

Leave it to me to dream about spraining my ankle only to fall a few hours later



So last night I had a dream that I fulfilled one of my bucket list items, while saving a little girl’s life by introducing her to Jesus. It was like a movie…

I have always wanted to be a Disney Princess for a day.  In my dream, I decided to dress up as Belle and go to Wal-Mart.  Well they kicked me out because I was “disturbing the peace” b/c the little kids came running and flocked to me. So I decided to go to the MUSC (local medical university here in my hometown) and go visit the children’s cancer ward. 

While there I met a little girl named Kaitlyn.  Me and her became instant buddies, and over a period of time, I mentioned Jesus. Long story short, she asked why she was going thru this battle if Jesus loved her, and I told her that God chooses special people to be His special warriors. And since she was a child of God, that made her a special Warrior Princess.  She liked the idea of the warrior princess and accepted Christ into her heart and I gave her a children’s Bible.

A couple weeks later, I learned that she left this world to spend eternity with her Heavenly Father, but not before writing me a note.  In the note she explained how she was thankful for introducing her to Jesus, (and how she knew I wasn’t Princess Belle, but knew that I was still a princess because my Father is a King) She gave me back the Bible to give to another special warrior prince/princess.

I woke up moved to tears. The dream was so realistic, but I really want to do this someday. Even if it is only for one little child, knowing I have made a difference in one child’s life will be more than enough for me.

I’ve always asked God to speak to me through dreams, and I think I finally got that prayer answered…

My Life: A New Chapter

So I just wanted to update on what has been going on.  God has really been moving in me.  And last night, with His help, I finally changed the page to a new chapter.

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So after asking and pleading with God to protect my dreams

I still had dreams about him :(

Why can I not go a night with out him popping up in my dreams? Seriously?!

I keep praying and asking God to PLEASE not let me dream of him, to give me dreams of other stuff, like sugar plums and fairies. But no, I still have dreams of him. It’s not fair…

I am most vulnerable at night :/

As much as I want to, I’m not giving up

Though I want to so bad. To just give up on my dream. To give up on what God has shown me He wants for me. To give up on ever having any dream for that matter, because I’m tired of them falling through.  First with my broken engagement, now not being able to afford college. I want to just say fine, I quit. I feel stupid for thinking if I couldn’t afford Winthrop that I could afford Charleston Southern, which costs almost double.

But I can’t shake the feeling God has got something up His sleeve. I cannot give up just yet. I suppose He is just testing my faith. I have cried, but I have not lost hope in Him. I know He can and will provide a way for me to pay this tuition.

He has shown me the path to take, I know He will get me there. I just have to hold on, and keep fighting the good fight of faith. I cannot let this set back keep me down.

God, please make a way. And please grant me the strength to hold on until you do.


Your Daughter, Tiffany


Wait on me, My princess. My timing is always perfect. I know you’re anxious about many things. I see your passion for all the plans I have put in your heart. I know you long to fly, and I see your enthusiasm. However, just as a worker amongst the vineyards nurtures the vine, and waits patiently for the right moment to harvest the grapes, so too am I working tirelessly to prepare you to bear much fruit. Don’t run ahead of Me or try to fly before My plans are complete. Your strength will fail you, and your dreams will wither away. Trust Me that My dreams for you are far greater than you can dream on your own. You will run farther and soar higher if you will wait patiently for the season of My blessing. Draw close to Me now, and I promise that the season of waiting, and remaining in Me, will bring you the sweetest of rewards.

“But those who wait on the Lord will find new strength, they will fly high on wings like eagles. They will run and not grow weary, they will walk and not faint.” - Isaiah 40:31


With love; your King and Lord of perfect timings. (via iwilltrustinyou)

I hate when I have good dreams then have to wake up to reality.

I much rather have silly/nonsense dreams, or even bad dreams at this point, than to have the good ones , because though I may enjoy it when I sleep, the pain that sets in when reality hits as I open my eyes and roll over is just unbearable.

Its like the opposite of the verse “Though the sorrows may last through the night, His joy comes with the morning” :/

But I know that I should be thankful to be here.  Thankful God has blessed me with another day here on this Earth. Blessed me with yet another opportunity to share His love and kindness towards others.

So I am going to put the rough wake up behind me and remember today to be thankful for the chance to have another day to share the love of Christ with those around me.

What Pinterest does to us

  • Friend: I want to go shopping now!
  • Me: For cute little lace dresses and adorable shoes with perfectly matching jewelry and get my hair all fixed up perfectly to go on a romantic date with my handsome Christian husband.
  • Friend: Yeah then go home to your beautiful dream home which is immaculately clean and tuck in your perfect gorgeous children and feed your dog a homemade dog treat
  • Me: And wake up bright and early for my early morning work out, then to fix my family a perfect looking (and did I mention HEALTHY) breakfast that the whole family will sit down to enjoy at the kitchen table together as a family
  • Friend: Oh pinterest, why do you fill our heads with such hopeless dreams?