I have really been thinking a lot lately.  About the battles I’ve gone through over the years.  Probably my biggest battle has been and is insecurity.  Or making the mistake of putting my “security” in things that would only make me more insecure in the end.

Relationships, good grades, and most other things in life will come and go.  And putting our security in those things/people, will only make matters worse.  It will cause our insecurity to grow greater with each let down.

The one thing that we can put our security in is with Jesus.  He will never leave us, nor forsake us.  He will not disappoint us.  His love is the one thing that will remain throughout all circumstances.

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… OF TURNING MY LIFE AROUND FOR CHRIST!

When I finally let go of the chains that was holding me down to a life of sin and deceit.  The day I told God I’m done living for myself, it has gotten me no where but hurt and heartbroken.  The day I told God, I’m now living for HIM and HIM alone!

This is a big day for me! I want to celebrate! But alas, my best friends are all away. My two best friends who helped me through it all are in two different states so I have no one to celebrate with me.

So I ask that I may celebrate with ya’ll, my Tumblr family! <3

Love you guys, many of you also have gotten me through the past year.  It’s been a year with so many countless blessings. It’s the first year of many on my Journey with Jesus. 

I hope that you may join the journey with me :D

Like many of my fellow young adults peers, I am trying to find my way.  Find what path Christ wants me to go down…

Well tonight I watched a sermon by Judah Smith (though I honestly didn’t care for him before, I just really felt led to watch this sermon, and seeing as though Tumblr videos never load on my laptop, this one loaded just fine so I figured it must mean I was supposed to watch it ;)

But in it, he helped me to see something I never thought of before… I wanted to share with you the connection that was made.  

He preached from John 14:1-6.  Jesus is speaking to the disciples…

“Let not your heart be troubled; you believe in God, believe also in Me. ² In My Father’s house are many mansions; if it were not so, I would have told you. I go to prepare a place for you. ³ And if I go and prepare a place for you, I will come again and receive you to Myself; that where I am, there you may be also. ⁴ And where I go you know, and the way you know.”

⁵ Thomas said to Him, “Lord, we do not know where You are going, and how can we know the way?” ⁶ Jesus said to him, “I am the way, the truth, and the life. No one comes to the Father except through Me.

John 14:1-6

Jesus told His disciples that they knew the way He was going. Thomas replied (the same way I would have replied) ‘No we don’t. We have not a clue where You are going.’  But God’s reply opened their eyes… So often we focus on this verse without thinking about it’s context.  Jesus replies “I am the way, the truth, and the life.” Therefore, if we know Jesus, we know the way.

The title of it was called “It’s Complicated.”  I’m not going to go into the whole sermon (you can look it up yourself, which I highly recommend)  but it was talking about how we Christians nowadays have complicated our relationship with Christ.

Judah demonstrated this by using a visual of a ball of rubber bands. We tend to see Christianity as a ball of rules and principles to follow. But if that is all we really see, we are missing the point!

Christianity is not about following a bunch of rules and regulations.  Christianity is about love. It is about loving God, and loving others (the 1st and 2nd most important commandments according to Jesus).  Yes, He gave us guidelines on how we should live, but if we do not have love, we really miss the whole point.

When we complicate our relationship with Jesus, it leads to confusion. BUT GOD IS NOT THE AUTHOR OF CONFUSION! (1 Cor 14:33) Confusion leads to exasperation.  I’m sure we have all gotten to the point where we just feel exasperated in our relationship with Him. We feel like we have reached a dead in.  Like there is no where else for us to go.  This all stems from complicating our relationship with Him.

So in other words. The point is: When You know Jesus, you know the way.  Don’t complicate your relationship with Christ.  Just know Him. Talk to Him. Pray to Him. Worship Him. And most importantly, LOVE Him.

Sure, this does not answer the question of where I am going with my life. What I will be when I grow up or how I plan on using my education. But I do know that no matter what path I take, I will have God with me. I will love Him and love His people.  He is the way I will go…

I can say first hand that it is better to walk out of your comfort zone to do as God has called than to not do anything at all.  The pain of regret will hurt worse than the fear of the unknown.

God called me to get involved in children’s church over a year ago.  I did not answer the call for my own selfish reasons.  I have since then, lost the opportunity and someone else has taken my place.

Though I am happy to see that the person is succeeding, it still pains me to know that it should have been me in her spot.  I thank God that she answered the call that I did not.

So please, I highly encourage you, no matter how big or small, no matter how frightening or intimidating the task at hand may be, please don’t let it pass you by.

Know that if you need any encouragement, I am here and will gladly encourage you. But do listen and obey God’s call.

I just felt the need to share this…

“O give thanks unto the LORD; for He is good: for His mercy endureth for ever” Psalm 136:1

I have heard those words before many times in my life. Growing up in church, it’s something that you tend to hear so much that it seems to just be a known concept.  If you’re anything like me, it was just something you heard and agreed with, but never really dwelt upon it upon it.  I too just smiled and said amen. Until about April/May of last year…

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I was listening to the radio and they brought up something that has been on my mind all day.

We all know that God is love, but they were asking how would you PERSONALLY fill in “Jesus is ______”

I am curious so…..

How would YOU fill it in?

Some days, (okay, so maybe a lot of days) I wish I could just fast forward life.  I wish I could fast forward to the chapter of “us”, where I finally have you as my very own.  Finally having someone who understands me, someone I can tell my inner most secrets to, someone who shares my love of the Almighty God who brought us together. Fast forwarding to the security that comes in knowing no matter what happens, I will have you there to stand by my side and help me stand when life tries to knock me down.  Someone who challenges and pushes me closer to God as I challenge you as well.

But then I think about it, and I come to the conclusion that if I fast forwarded this time, then I would be missing out on a lot.  I would miss out on the day we meet, the day we first lock eyes, the day we fall in love with each other. And as much as I hate the fear and stress of worrying that I may never find you, I know that this time of hoping and praying for you will only make me love you even more.  All this time without you will help me to appreciate the time that I am with you even more.

So in the end, (though it’s not like I really have a choice anyway), I decide that it is best that I don’t have a fast forward button.  This time is helping me to learn patience, faith, and trust.

But know that even though I may not know you yet, I love you very much. And pray for you often. 

I hope that this time of preparation is strengthening you like it is strengthening me.  I pray that as time goes on, and we grow closer to each other, that we are simultaneously growing even more closer to God.

I love you and pray many blessings over you.

Sincerely and with lots of Love,

Your Future Wife <3